Phoenix
What is it about the blank page that makes it so hard to get started writing? I have so much I want to say and when I finally get the time to sit down and write, I sit staring at the screen wondering how to start.
I was talking with my buddy Pete the other day (it sure feels like the other day, but it was probably a good two weeks ago) and he was ragging on me for not updating the site in forever. I told him that between my job and my friends and everything else, magic’s kinda taken a backseat. I’m at the point where updating regularly would consist of nothing more than mindless short posts (which is what Twitter’s for) and that’s why I kinda gave up. I said something along the lines of, “I either need to officially give up the blog, or start doing magic again.”
I’m not giving this motherfucker up.
I have wanted to make a living as a magician for as long as I can remember. I work shitty dead-end job after shitty dead-end job in hopes of making it big some day, like an actor paying his dues waiting tables. I’ve been in this off and on for over a decade. It’s getting close to shit or get off the pot time.
The funny thing is, nobody’s come in and handed me an act yet. Gigs aren’t booking themselves, and construction hasn’t begun on my Vegas theater. And yet, apparently I expect all that to happen because I sit here day after day and do nothing to make progress. There’s always something more interesting to do than to work on my act or make some phone calls. And that’s really dumb. I understand that being a professional magician is a job just like any other, although it’s a very fun job. But I’m not treating it like one. If I slacked off this much at my day job, I’d be out on the street in an instant.
So I’m starting from scratch, and taking things seriously. I’m going to buckle down, work hard, and make a go of this. I know I can’t keep dicking around forever, and I refuse to quit without making a real effort. I’m not going to commit myself to any type of schedule (such as working on things for 4 hours a day and posting here twice a week) because that only sets me up for failure. I have proven that time and time again.
What I will say is that I am going to buckle down and do this, posting as frequently as possible about my progress. It’s going to be an interesting journey because I’m starting completely fresh and working my way back up. Tune in, tell your friends, and keep your fingers crossed. This is going to be an interesting ride.
Andster